At first, I saw only things like "potential," "character," "what it could be" - now I'm just not sure.
I'm moving into a house that a friend of mine owns, but he has since moved away and has had a tough time taking care of the house. I had visited the house a few times to take a look at it and see what needed to be done to get it back into shape, the first 2 or 3 times, I had a lot of optimism (for some reason), but upon visiting the house this afternoon (after a friend had mentioned that they were condemming houses in the city of Pittsburgh, in order to clean up the area and I wanted to make sure that my friend's house wasn't boarded up) my optimism has shifted to a little more fear than anything.
I don't know if it's in part with some of the drastic changes in my life the last few weeks, along with some financial uncertainty, as well as uncertainty to my life/career choices, that I've made, but the thought of "fear" has certainly set in.
Don't get me wrong, I knew from the start that the word "huge" and "project" should have been substituted for a phrase that included more words like "fire," "burns," "house," and "down" (something similar to what you might read in the local paper). I'm not backing out now, I'm not saying things like this to act like it's become a huge burden or that it wouldn't be a good move for myself, because in all honesty, there are a few things that will make this a positive move (once the house starts getting fixed up).
First off, I will be roughly 25-30 minutes closer to not only work, but to where my friends live/hang out at (as well as 30 minutes closer to Maryland - it's a nicer drive when it only takes 4 and a half hours, versus 5). The second is the savings my car will get as far as wear and tare, and burning unessicary gas; it is also possible that I might be able to bike to work, or at least the Metro station. Third, I'm not going to be paying much more than what I did at my apartment, and I have a whole house, which is pretty cool. I'm also glad that I'm able to help out a friend who doesn't have time to put a lot of his own valuable time into being at the house and making sure that it is safe from people breaking in or anything like that, but the housing market right now (anywhere in the US) is not a seller's market. Which brings up another thought, owning this home after about a year or so.
The thought has been brought up to purchase the home after living there for a year or longer, depending on how myself and my friend view the situation. I can't say that I know I'm going to stay in Pittsburgh forever, the thought has crossed my mind to travel some more for work (even if my current employer "ANC Sports" scheduled me for 3 trips, then changed their company policy during my 1st one, not allowing me to travel as a part-time employee...lame) or the possibility to move back to Maryland to go and work where I can live near my family, but even if I were back in Maryland, it would not be as close to my parents and my sister & bro-in-law as I would like, I would have to live closer to work to cut down on the travel time. Or what about the possibility of working on the West Coast, or down South, or up North.
I can't say that I really want to work in L.A. anymore, not a big fan of the city, if it were San Francisco, that would be a different story, it's really cool out there...minus the huge levels of fog, true story. New York/Boston/Conn area would be interesting, I've been to NYC once, it's nice, obviously super busy. I looked into ESPN's Production Assistant Program, which I would still be right in line for, still being in the "coming out of college market" but it doesn't seem to pay much, as far as trying to put together some savings for a house or something, so dunno about that.
I'm possibly in line to have an ok job with ANC Sports here in Pittsburgh, once the new Consol Energy Center opens up next season; with the new Scoreboard and LEDs in the arena, if ANC finalizes the contract, I would be responsibly for making sure that everything worked. Not exactly what I wanted to be doing right out of college, but it puts me near TV jobs, so I guess I'm ok with it.
So we shall see what the coming months bring. I think that once I get my key to the house to start moving my own crap in it, this will lead to some positive energy coming my way. A lot of things happened all at once, I didn't know how to react to them at first, and different emotions began to roll out, really making me think about a lot of past events and future decisions coming up.
I'll post some pictures/video soon, hopefully on a sunny day starting with what the house's current shape is in, and showing the evolution over time as to what happens to it.
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