I think a lot of people find themselves falling more times than they find themselves running a straight line. It's easy to agree that as a people, we tend to sway ourselves toward the negative, more so than what may be more positive.
Everyone finds themselves frustrated at times, recently I've found myself frustrated in what seems like more than ever in my life, but I eventually come back down to one common theme....moving on.
Depending on how frustrated, someone might ask, well how do you just move on from that?
How can I not? Is what I ask back.
Does it drive me nuts when petty things get in the way of life, or that drama comes out of things that shouldn't even matter right now, yea it does...trust me, it does. When you wake up the next day, I've always found myself pondering, hey I got into tomorrow without any damage, so why would I think differently one day versus the next, what would make me falter from that process.
Everyone's different, and I get that. I'm not attempting to spell out that I have some magical way of dealing with stress and negative energy that flows through the daily course of one's life, I'm just giving my perspective. The way I look at it, if you've lived 2 conscious days of human life, what would make you believe that you couldn't make it to the next day? I've never understood that, it's quite difficult for me to put myself in someone's shoes that may be dealing with that in their life, I do not know how to relate to that in any way.
You may be thinking to yourself one of two things...
1) yea, what's with those people who want to end their lives or something like that, they're just trying to grab attention
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2) How I view it...I may not want to take my life if things get out of whack for me, but there are those who do feel that could be their only solution, so why do they think that's the only way, when I will find hope in the objective sense of "tomorrow"?
Sadly, it seems like there is only one topic that really pushes people to this brink...maybe a few more, but this is a big one: Intimate Relationships (I say intimate because I push this beyond friendship).
You can be with someone for 2 years or 2 months, and you might have the same level of depression coming out of it, because you've invested time into that person, and at some point in either of those time frames, it's crossed your mind that you may spend the rest of your life with that person, don't lie, because you have.
That all ends, where do you go? You were set. You KNEW that this person was it for you. You were 100%. Then a week went by. They forgot to say "I love you" over the phone and you got nervous. Another day goes by and they just want to go to bed instead of spending the evening with you watching your mutually favorite rerun of some lame cable tv show. You start to worry, so it begins to unravel. You block out any notion that you know what might be happening, or that this has gone on before (not only to you, but in a million other lives across the planet for millions of years). Then something snaps, either in you or in them that makes one of you perpetuate the relationship, when the other sees nothing wrong which causes them to react against the will you've decided to choose...for the both of you.
So it ends. Right? You feel pain, some emotional, maybe forced physical because you're thinking too much and giving yourself a headache. But it happens, so why pour your soul out on the asphalt attempting to repair something that wasn't meant to be repaired? That's the automatic default mode someone goes into, once you've lost it, you attempt to save what parts are left, in the hope that it will come back.
It may not come back, for various reasons, and at some point, you should come to grips that it may be better that it doesn't.
Does that sound to cynical? Maybe, but I don't think it does, I think it's more of what you eventually come to understand as time heals your wounds.
Is there someone out there meant for everyone? This is a faith and psychological question, so your own personal feelings answer that question. In my own opinion, I can honestly say I don't have that answer, I don't think it's fair to question the world with something like that, as you can control the outcome if you choose. People don't just fit together like a puzzle, if they did, then yes, we would have someone waiting for us. Rather, people fit like an orchestra tuning their music to pass along the vibrant waves of music, playing together in tune with one another, compromising and adjusting, finding that specific point and where they both see eye to eye.
Does everyone have the right to find themselves upset and questioning life, sure, I think you do.
But isn't that the whole fun in life? Figuring out what you're supposed to do? If you're only 23 (like me), what would be the fun in life if you had your paper done before the rest of the class?
The Teacher isn't going to let you leave, He'll probably only let you rest your head on your desk.
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