The water's fine.

I began a thought about a day ago, thinking about the idea of being human and constantly searching for something higher for one's self, even if it was just on a surface of wanting to be greater for the purpose of image and nothing less.

I'll get back to that.

I just finished watching "The Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind" where Jim Carey and Kate Winslet, meet, potentially multiple times, since the memories of the two of them have been erased, at least once, because their relationship has flattened out, and the two have began to hate each other, driving Winslet's charachter to seek having Carey's charachter erased from her memory.

Only we find that while Carey's memory is being erased, he attempts to hide her inside other memories that never related with her. Only, he is not successful.

As the story continues, we pick up at the beginning of the film, the two meeting the morning after his mind is erased, by chance. Only to pick up a little further and find out that they both recieved tapes letting them know what was going on/what had happened, thus each hearing for the first time, why they ended up hating each other.

Oddly enough, they both agree, even knowing that they will utimately come to despise each other, to advance further into an intimate relationship.

This got me thinking on two levels.

First - If you already knew, what would be your motivation to become love-sick and heartbroken? Could you learn anything about yourself with her/him, or even change the course of action that will occur (or has already occurred in their case).

Second - I'll take myself as an example...If I still have not finished learning all there is to know about myself, or myself involved in personal relationships, more specifically, and intimate relationship, what becomes the driving force to understand "growing" an intimate relationship at a young age, when I only know so much?

When I say growing - I decifer this as the fact that I am less likely to find someone at my age now that is willing to put up with my own personal BS, and include it with their own, because as two seperate individuals, aren't we both still figuring out how to make that work?

Just a lot of thoughts, with no real answers or any forgone conclusions.

I guess what my thoughts boil down to at the moment, are that you're never going to figure any of this out unless you give yourself the chance to screw up and try to correct your mistakes. If you hold back on your life, fearful of looking foolish, how much might you miss out on?

In the end, the water's fine and you should just get in.

...and yes, I noticed the multitude of spelling errors in this post....it's 4am.